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Apr 23, 13
01:01 AM

Update on my life

Hey guys,

I don’t know how people find me…but I keep gaining followers haha. 

First off, I would like to clear something up. 

I am not Julie or whoever the person was that make themes. I stumbled across this url and somehow I got it.

Okay, so back to the update. My life is alright now I’ve become an anti-social. I mean, I have friends, but we’re not close anymore and I find that I like being by myself. My relationship with my parents have gotten better. We still fight, but it’s not like before. I’m getting ready to move to SoCal. I have all my winter clothes packed already. (I don’t think I’ll need them anyway.) Recently, I found out my cousin is a backstabbing bitch. It really hurt, especially because she’s my cousin, but whatever. I haven’t even bitched at her yet. I just confronted her and I have been giving her the cold shoulder. She knows she’s wrong and we’ll never go back to that “bestfriend” relationship anymore. I’m sorry, but she completely lost my trust. On the other hand, I’m really excited for summer, only one more month left of school! Yay! c:

Goodbye guys, it’s 1 AM where I am.

Oct 27, 12
12:06 AM
Anonymous:
What song is playing? C:

which one?

if the first, Because it’s you - Tiffany Hwang c:

Oct 09, 12
10:04 PM

I’m so sick of homework right now. It can go do itself or find some other slut to do it. Jfc, school is so dumb. Can not wait for summer break. 

Oct 09, 12
10:02 PM
smileoverdose:
hey i have installed one of your themes and im trying to put a tagged page on one of the "links" buttons but it says the theme like doesn't support pages - can you help me c: ?

I’m sorry but those are not my themes and you have the wrong blog. Please go to utekii.tumblr.com and click on her themes page. The theme you are talking about is most likely hers. She deleted her account with ‘uyu-tea’ and that is how I got the name. 

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Sep 22, 12
02:48 PM
Anonymous:
how old are you?

I’m in highschool.

not a freshmen, not a senior.

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Sep 22, 12
02:47 PM
Anonymous:
what is your english name?

I really don’t want to tell. If I do, people I know might figure out it’s me. If you were unanon I’ll reply privately :)

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Sep 22, 12
02:47 PM
Anonymous:
you are so pathetic getting angry at an anon lol

and you are so pathetic for being an anon lol

get the fuck off my page, please and thank you :)

I just only wanted to tell that certain anon my opinions and why I was being a bitch toward my parents.

I’m a pathetic person, I already know that. No need to tell me.

Sep 22, 12
02:45 PM
Anonymous:
are you really julie? ...O_O

I am not Julie.

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Sep 22, 12
02:39 PM

I hate my fucking step dad so fucking much. He treats me like total shit. My cousin is the same way too. They act like I’m worthless and useless constantly comparing me to other people. Like bitch, I’m gonna send your ass to a fucking nursing home and bitch, I can’t wait to get the fuck away from you next year. 

My step dad has to constantly call me every fucking second of my life to make sure I’m gonna do his laundry or some shit. Like just a few minutes ago I was outside in the fucking drive way of my house because I was throwing the fucking trash away and helping my cousin unpack her clothes so I can do her fucking laundry. And he calls me and couldn’t get a hold of me because I left my phone inside. So he calls my dumbass brother and my brother runs all over the house looking for me but doesn’t bother to open the damn door or look outside. So he told my dad I wasn’t home. I go inside and guess what I get fucking yelled at. He’s like you shouldn’t leave your brother home alone, I’m just like Jesus fucking christ, I WAS IN THE DRIVEWAY GODDAMIT..no wait jk my friend came over and picked me up and we’re at the mall now. LOL I got yelled at for being a sarcastic bitch but hey it was worth he laugh.

My cousin on the other hand is a total bitch. I FUCKING HATE HER. I do everything for her, I helped her pack/unpack when she moved to an apartment. I do her laundry, fuck I can even pass for her maid. But you know how she treats me? Like I’m an idiot. I blame myself for this, for being so nice and not speaking my mind because if I did then no one would call me stupid or dumb or way too nice. Like bitch I’ll bite your dick off. So back to the story. She was talking on the phone with my other cousin and she asked her where she was at, and the girl responded I’m volunteering. So she turns to me and was like, why don’t you do anything and just sit your ass at home like a lazy bum. That pissed me the fuck off. LIKE HELL, I WISH I COULD VOLUNTEER, GET MY ASS AWAY FROM YOU BASTARDS.But there are a few problems. 

  1. I can’t drive.
  2. Even if I did, no car.
  3. I have to watch my brother.

And she was like, if you really wanted to volunteer then someone else could look after your brother. And I was like uhm okay. WHAT ABOUT THE FIRST TWO FUCKING POINTS.

and she always calls me dumb, retard, idiot, weird, or some other degrading name. it hurts you know? One day I was helping my other cousin cook for her wedding and I can’t cook, I’m hopeless. So I was bagging the food instead. And my cousin (the bitchy one) was like you’re so useless, why are you even here. I literally ran to the bathroom and started crying for like ten minutes. But I didn’t say anything. I just went out and said I was constipated that’s why I took so long. And they started laughing at me, and I laughed it off. But I was really hurt.

That’s the problem with me. I’m too nice, so people take advantage of that and treat me like shit. I wish I had the courage to speak my mind.

Sep 22, 12
01:05 PM | 39,733 notes
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I really love this song so much. Hole In Your Face - Phantom

I really love this song so much. Hole In Your Face - Phantom